When I was 13 years, I visited Dhaka from abroad. I was really bored as I could not really fit in after being brought up abroad. Oneday I went to the roof top of my house in Elephant Road and saw this guy staring at me. I was very shy and did not want our eyes to meet. He was on the roof top with his sister and niece.
The next day, I saw him again in the roof-top. This time he was on his own. I got my eyes to meet with his eyes. He dropped me a letter which I could not read as I can\'t read Bengali. I took the letter anyway and got someone else to read. It said that he wanted to get to know me better and that my eyes drove him mad.I still remember that letter after 15 years.
My love affair with this guy was strange. He was my phone friend. I still remember his number: 500446. We were very initimate over the phones. I used to long for 7pm when he would call me and nothing could really keep me away from talking to him. I would make all the excuses in the world just to talk to him.
In March 1984 - after 30 days of phone relationship, it was time for me to go back to England. When I told him that he thought I was joking as I used to enjoy making the micky of him sometimes.
His reaction was like - lets get married. But I could I - I was only 13 years old and I loved my parents. But he told me to get ready and stay ready for him to pick me up in his motorcycle. I asked him where he was going to take me and he said that he was going to take me to his friends house and then to the registry house to get married.Part of me said that I should go with him.
On the day I was supposed to travel back with my family - he called me and I said no. I wanted to be with my family.
I guess he was my first love and I will always remember him. He is my unknown lover. I still think - what if but I guess - I will never